Semi-blind yet again

i am stuck at home again cause i am semi-blind now!!

i was wondering why is it that my eyes hurt so badly at times that i can't even open ever since my KL trip? So i decided to see the doctor in early October but the doctor just went overseas and will only be back 3 weeks later.

I still wait and my colleagues were all saying, your condition is already so bad, why do you still want to wait? I don't know, i just like to see that doctor for my eyes only.

I have to work OT yesterday so by the time i reached the clinic, the number i got is 22 and the doctor was not there yet. Thinking of grabbing my dinner first but they say need to do an eye check. So there i was, waiting and waiting till my eye check at around 9pm and finally get to see the doctor at close to 10pm.

Finally, found out the reason why my eyes hurt badly at times and there is always recurrent growth of sty. It's all due to the fact that i have a very sensitive nose since birth which results in me having sensitive eyes and frequent tearing. I can't do anything about it, the most is put some eye drops.

But since i'm there, i ask the doc whether do i have anymore sty in my eye. I thought sty only appear on the lower eyelid, but who knows, it also grow on the upper eyelid. Just like last year, it also grow on both eyes. That's why my eyes are swollen but i didn't notice it(others told me that).

But unlike from last year where he gave me 30 minutes to prepare myself, he didn't gave me anytime - he did it on the spot. It hurts and i make quite abit of noise. So he was kind of shy and did not want to continue with the other eye. He say i can do it another time and if he do both eyes, i can't go back on my own. But i insist on doing it all at one shot cause i am scared to do it again. I rather have the pain just once and not twice. I get to review the whole process on the recorder too, it look as though you are squeezing a pimple and forcing all the pus out. It kind of look disgusting but luckily there is no need for injection this year.

Why must i go through this every year. Tearing and some bleeding in the eyes and waking up in the morning with swollen eyes with some pain and discomfort from the operation. The worst is that i have a diet restriction - no seafood....ahhhhh

Hopefully i won't go through all these next year....touch wood....