work buddy

my present work buddy...is someone that i told my bro from the start that i can only work with her and not be good friends with her

i find her too cunning in a way but it might not be the correct word to describe....i can sense that she doesn't like me or is it that i am too sensitive

she don't like the feeling of me outshining her and wearing nicer clothing or people praising me and she changes her mind pretty often. Let say for example, she will say to do this process this way is better but 2 months down the road, she will say xiao mei, next time do not do this way cause she already forgot she is the one who told me to do it that way

she will have the kind of unhappy expression when i join the conversation she is in with other colleagues and she doesn't really hopes that i know more things although she says otherwise

she is really good at pleasing all the bosses which i am super bad at. There once, we ask her to do a certain process that way to correct the error but she insisted that she had done that way already but it is still wrong but one of my colleague and me insisted on her doing it again and bingo, the error got solved. But from then until we got off work, her face is the super black type...

i am very simple minded, i just want to get things done and although i may be careless or slower but i have my own method of doing stuff, why do you want to insist on me doing that way and show your displeasure infront of me only and not others?

i had never thought of outshining anyone, why do i have a feeling that you feels that i am threatening you?

i had became more and more quiet nowadays, i don't know to talk or not to talk. Once i talk, i seems to strike her nerve...haiz...

and i don't like the fact that one moment you seems super nice and close to the person and the next, you are stabbing that person in the back, so cruel...so bad

i want to hide in my own cave, can i?